i swear my life sucks right now T_T

i cant stand school. i cant stand studying anymore it really isnt working for me i dont feel the information sinking in.

i hate being expected to be an A grade student. its to much damn pressure !!

today was just a big headache. friends nagging me to come out to party. mom going mad and crazy at me for doing nothing and now not speaking to me and calling me a liar. so so depressed over that T_T i called nat and was in histerics over the phone --"

and i cant even go out to party and get pissed with friends... that makes it like...nearly 4 months ive not been drinking... wow... but ... hmm.... about 3 days since i last smoked, pretty good right ?

saturday is Rachels 18th the long wait for the prom style party is over and i am not looking forward to it ! not got her a present ! or a card ! or anything !! oh well still got time. got to meet at her house first at 4 get to go in the limo XDDD.

then on sunday is SHOPPING !! at cheshire oaks woooooot ! cant wait ! going with nat , nats mom and my mom ! will be so much fun!!